I haven’t felt like myself in months and it feels like I might finally fall through the cracks.
Falling in order to find myself. The spiral.
The cycle. ꩜
It’s been 131 days since I’ve stopped drinking again. I still feel blocked, but it’s not the alcohol…
They say in order to become the best version of ourselves we have to let go of everything holding us back. So, I set up a grid last night to help me distinguish the ‘good’ and ‘bad’ in my life. ݁⋆☯︎˚.⋆
I asked my guides how to pay attention + listen to my own energy and trust my intuition
How to know the difference between helpful and hurtful
If this is the end, or just the beginning?
I set this grid up using ::
Crystals ~ grounding, connection to the Earth
Feathers ~ freedom, connection to the sky
Bay leaves ~ protection, connection to ancestors
Cinnamon ~ good fortune, connection to wealth
Lavender ~ calming
A candle ~ self representation, lighting the way
Rice ~ stability
&Salt ~ Himalayan (highest point) + Sea (lowest point)
It’s not much, but it’s so important to me to stay involved and disciplined in these practices. No matter how small, every step back to her is one step closer
I don’t want to miss myself any longer
and I don’t want to give my energy to those who misplace it — The intention of this grid is to know and find the truth
For that is all we’ll ever have ꨄ︎
You are Exactly Where You Need To Be 